Impatiently Waiting....

After my last post the information began sinking in and I began questioning what was really going on. Then I did what nobody should do. I used Google to see what lumpy kidney's could really mean. That was a horrible idea. Google is evil, yet I always seem to use it. I shouldn't do that. Every web page that came up had something to do with Kidney Cancer and/or Kidney Disease. Talk about enough to send this momma into a straight on panic attack.

After a day and a half of getting the nerves up to call Dr. Foster back to talk about what I found online, my worst fears were, in a way, confirmed. Really there are three things we will be looking at after the next ultrasound. The first and best result would be Khloe's kidney's look beautiful and smooth (normal). The next could be that they look basically the same but it is determined that is just her and they are fine. Not my ideal, but better than the alternative. The last would be that it is determined that she needs to have the MRI done to either confirm she does or does not have cancer. Wow. That sickens me to think about.

The radiologist that looked over Khloe's imaging thinks that the probability of her actually having cancer is minimal. Hence, the reason we are not going straight in to do the MRI now. Rather, we are hoping she has some sort of infection that will heal on it's own over the next few week's and won't be seen on the next ultrasound.

So, I guess we wait and see. And if you know me, I am not patient in the least bit. So this should be an interesting few weeks.

Intermountain PCMC

Today we had Khloe's appointment at the Intermountain Primary Children's Medical Center to have an ultrasound done of her Kidney's. Such a great place! The waiting room had computers with X-Box games set up, a table for coloring, toy cars and such. There was no way to get bored waiting for your turn back.

When back with radiology we had a hard time holding Khloe down to get the needed images of her kidney's. Such a fighter she is! I think she is mostly traumatized with her recent trip to the after hours pediatrician when they did a catheter on her to verify if she had a second UTI or not. The minute you attempt to lay her down on a bed in any doctor's office she will kick and scream and cry. It really is amazing how much strength this sweet little 20 month old baby has! After imaging her front the tech had me hold Khloe so she could get a look through the back. That was a million times easier!

Once finished the tech checked with the radiologist to make sure he had everything he needed. When they came back in the room he wanted another look through Khloe's back side. That gave me some major anxiety. What was he seeing?

Well, I just received a call from Dr. Foster (Khloe's pediatrician). Results came in a-typical. Basically her kidney's have a lumpy look to them (Can happen with a kidney infection, which she doesn't have). They should be completely smooth. So we are repeating the ultrasound in 4-6 weeks. From there we will see if this is something that is okay or if we need to have further testing, such as an MRI, after that.

So, I guess the anxiety will continue until we know for sure what is going on. That's my job as a mother right, to worry?

Weight Check FAIL

Yesterday was D Day. After two months of trying to get Khloe up to 20 lbs. 4 oz. we failed. Not so miserably, but it still felt like a failure to me. She weighed in at 20 lbs. 2 oz. TWO FREAKING OUNCES IS ALL WE WERE OFF! That's a small enough gap to drive one mad I tell you.

The peditrician wasn't to concerned. We were close enough to our goal. His orders are to keep up with the carnation instant breakfast twice a day with her milk. He feels that by her 2 year well child check up she will be back on track. A few things I've found the kid will devour are chicken nuggets, pudding, applesauce and baby food veggies. So we'll keep giving her as much of those things as she wants and hope she gets back on track.

One thing I was hoping for was that the ultrasound to check her kidneys would still just be just in talks and a possibility if the future. Nope. We are scheduled for Monday, Jan 23rd at 9:00am to get that done. Dr Foster doesn't think we will find anything, but still would rather error on the safe side. Basically he said if we didn't check and something was there she ultimitely could lose a kidney in the future. Yeah, we most definitely do not want that. So we'll check just to be reassured.

First Haircut

I may or may not have shed a tear. Not because I was upset watching an inch or so of Khloe's baby locks being cut away. But rather, this is just one more milestone (if you can call it that) showing that she is no longer my little baby, but rather, a little girl. Any an absolutely amazing one at that. Now enjoy!

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You Can't Get It Past Me

We have all heard of the Words With Friends app. Dewey has a Windows phone which apparently is not compatible with that app. We were able to find another with the same concept called Words By Post, which BTW fails in comparison.

A few nights ago we were playing each other. I am sitting on one couch while he is sitting across from me on the other couch, supposedly doing homework intermittently. He needed to wake up early for work so when he was done with said "homework" he slipped off to go to bed. I decided I was going to stay up a bit. Hey... all my shows were starting for the New Year! While I am sitting here I decide I should update my blog as it had been neglected. When I picked up the computer and pulled it from it's sleep I saw the website: www.wineverygame.com (I doubt the securities on this site so visit at your own risk). Yup that's right, a scrabble cheat site. I busted out laughing!

I knew he had probably fallen asleep but absolutely could not pass up this opportunity to show him how NOT sneaky he is! I brought the laptop in with the site still pulled up and shook him awake. Through the laughter I mentioned to him that if he wanted to cheat he should probably close the site down when he is done. You know. To.Cover.His.Ass! He pushed out an embarrassed chuckle and told me he didn't know what I was talking about.

Moral of the story. You can't get these type of things past me. I will find out. Every.Single.Time. I WIN!

Coughs, Catheters and Super Baby

Remember that UTI Miss K had a few month's back? Well it came back to haunt us. Not only is her pediatrician more concerned about her weight (or lack thereof) than ever, but, now that it is in her chart, unexplained fevers pose concern that this little bugger could be the culprit.

When we were heading home Christmas night I noticed Khloe had a cough coming on. It stayed as just that until Wednesday, when a runny nose and fever stuck their foot through the door. Nothing to concerning, and certainly nothing a little Tylenol wouldn't fix. Then Thursday came. During Khloe's bath I noticed her hands, feet and lips were blue and immediately checked the water temperature. It was fine. I pulled Khloe out and dried her off and got her in the warmest jammies she has. Her temp had risen to 101.8. She obviously was not feeling well at all so I called the after hours ped and made an appointment. When we arrived and got checked in Miss K's temp was at 102.4 (The highest she's ever had, BTW). A quick check of her O2 levels, throat, lymph nodes, breathing and ears proved those were not the culprit of the heightened fever. Then the question above our heads. Could she have another UTI? She never had a follow up done but wasn't showing any of the signs as she had before. Regardless the pediatrician wanted to check. After 45 minutes with the bag we could not get a clean catch. The only option left was to use the catheter. My heart sank. It took mommy holding her hands and assuring her everything was going to be okay at her head, a nurse holding her legs back and then the ped cathing her. I have never felt like a worse mother. Here is my daughter wide awake with us holding her down while someone was doing that to her. She was just looking into my eyes with crocodile tears running into her hair. Although she couldn't form words I knew she was screaming in her head and wondering why I was not protecting her from this. As soon as we were finished I just sat in the chair rocking her and crying. I know, I am over-reacting. But it doesn't matter. She is my baby and to watch her be so miserable killed me.

*Note* The ped did say that Khloe was so strong which made that one of the hardest caths she has ever had to do. You go girl! Never give in. Stay strong baby!

After ALL that, no UTI. It was chalked up to a nasty cold. She seems to be doing much better now. Although she still has the damn cough lingering. Now we are back to stacking on the calories in hopes we can make the 20.4 lb mark the pediatrician is needing by Jan 18th. Crossing our fingers.